Life update? Quarantine, weight gain, loss of a loved one...
Hello guys, what's up? I know, it's been a while since I wrote a blog post here and I am going to explain why. So here we go!
First of all, I wanted to apologize for going MIA for 2 months, I just really needed some time off and now I am feeling so much better.
I'm gonna start by the beginning, the quarantine!
I officially stopped working in the middle of March, and at first, I was like: "Hey, don't worry, it's not going to last forever!" but I did last forever!
During the first weeks of quarantine, I was motivated, I wanted to do a lot of different stuff I never had time to do before. So, I took my planner and wrote down all my schedule: wakeup, meditate, drink more water, write tons of blog posts, create content for Instagram, finish my online school, and even workout every day. And, to be honest, it worked only for a month!
Sadly, I felt demotivated very quickly and I went to "bad quarantine". By that I mean, spending days on the couch, doing nothing except watching Netflix and Tik Tok. I'm not the kind of person who wanted to learn Japanese and repaint the whole house during quarantine, but, I just wanted to be productive, at least a little bit more than usual. I started to feel bad, mentally speaking, and a little bit depressed about not going out, enjoying the shops, restaurants, or simply seeing people. I know a lot of people felt this way too and fortunately for me, I was quarantined with my parents so I never felt alone.
How it's going on right now? The quarantine in Miami is left since June but, Florida has a lot of new cases of COVID every day so, we still stay inside, avoid going out, beaches, and restaurants are still close. This whole situation is going to make me feel crazy, I only hope this year ends soon.
Moving on my weight gain! Since I moved to Miami, 2 years ago, I took 7 kilos/ 15 pounds. And for me, that was a lot!! So, during the past 2 years, I tried several diets, products, and workouts, and nothing changed. I arrived at the point where I was disgusted by my own body. I felt fat, none of my pictures were good enough for Instagram, I cried in the fitting room when a jean didn't fit me and I hated myself in a bikini!
What's funny in this, is that, when I finally weighed myself during quarantine and saw that I took more weight and, I was like: "girl, you gotta stop worrying so much about what other people think, you gotta love yourself!". And I had a huge breakthrough! I AM DAMN BEAUTIFUL AND I DON'T CARE ABOUT MY WEIGHT ANYMORE! I still don't know how this happened, but I just changed. I can finally watch myself in a mirror, I am cute on IG pictures, I won't stop eating (healthy most of the time) and I love myself in a bikini!
Guys, just love yourself, you are beautiful just the way you are!
I am going to finish this blog post by talking about my uncle. I lost my uncle/ godfather on the 1st of June. He didn't die because of the COVID, he was sick for a long time before that. The f*cking Cancer took him. He was young, young enough to do so much more in his life. He leaves behind him a wife, 3 boys, and a whole family who loves him. Life isn't fair, we know it and otherwise, it will be too easy. This loss was hard for everyone in my family and the more difficult thing was to not be able to go to his funeral in France because of the COVID.
With all of this being said, don't take life for granted! We don't know what is going to happen tomorrow. We didn't know that we will have a worldwide pandemic in 2020, and yet, it happened! Enjoy your life, love yourself, do what you want to do, and be grateful for your family because, we only have one.